Rating for 10/31: 2

Yesterday I went to work and rode my bike, which would normally result in an automatic minimum score of 3, but then my will basically collapsed, and I think that I should be penalized for what happened. It's not like this is very unique or interesting--I had a list of things to do, started doing them, hit some walls, got frustrated, looked at the left-over Halloween candy, started eating candy, then gave up and told myself that I would be awesome starting "tomorrow". This way of thinking is a sickness. It's not something that anyone should emulate. My frustration with myself has resulted in the decision to change my scoring criteria. At least for a while, my score will soley be a function of how disciplined I am, or how powerfully I assert my will. Emerson pointed out the Stoic motto "Obey thyself". It's basic, yet essential. Quality goals, good planning, skill, experience, etc. are all great things, but they're nothing without an effective will. I'm going to tell myself what I'm going to do, and whether or not I do it will determine whether or not I've failed. I don't care how I do it, whether I stay composed while I do it, or even whether it's the right thing (with respect to scoring only, of course). Maybe this is what Dan means by 100% consciousness.