I crashed and burned today. Overall, this was my worst day of 2007 so far. After Dan and Heroko left, I didn't want to work, and I sat there feeling extremely depressed. The house was empty, I had a mountain of work looming over me on what should have been my day of rest, and I was thinking about my dinner of brown rice that awaited me in a few hours. It was all too much and I said fuck it. I bought some candy and fries and messed around on the internet until 11pm. This royally screwed me. I can't believe I did this. I absolutely cannot believe this. This is a loss/1/straight 0s, or whatever. Here's how I'm going to try to salvage this:

1. The money I spent won't really be an issue. It's not as if I have absolutely nothing left at the end of the month. I have a small surplus, so that will absorb my junk food spree.
2. No desserts until at least Saturday, provided I'm back to my normal level by then. I need to eat only the most healthy foods between now and then to give me energy to make it, because...
3. I will probably pull an all-nighter tonight. I hate the thought of doing that with all my soul. I swore off that practice, but now, because I screwed up so bad, I'm faced with a choice: either I can not complete me work, or I can not sleep. Since not completing my work is not an option, I won't sleep.
4. The all-nighter plus the junk food will wreak havoc on my system. I'm "shutting down all non-essential systems" as it were. I'm only sleeping, working, or doing school stuff until probably Saturday. That means no writing, posting, reading, or leisure time this week. Any spare moments I have I will use to sleep. I'm also going to drink boat loads of espresso so that I can stay awake. I'll bring coffee to class with me so I don't fall asleep.

Godfather, please forgive me for this transgression. I'm an asshole. I don't know what happened. I completely collapsed. I'm brimming with self-loathing at the moment.