Outcome for 5/18: Win
Record: 2-0
Streak: Won 2

Summary: There were several things that I did poorly today: I woke up late, which meant that I was late for work; I was not relaxed and confident in my conversations; at times I made decisions without clearly deciding on the principle to make them; and I was extremely casual at night with my time. However, there are two big reasons I gave myself the win. #1, I never gave up or gave in. This may seem small, but I know for myself it's significant--there were two cookies I got from work (huge cookies), and I ate one at the time I received them as my one dessert for the day. Then I battled with myself to refrain from eating the other one. The temptation to say fuck it, it's Friday and I'm on break was tremendous, but I stuck to my principle, and more broadly, I kept trying to be virtuous. #2, as I mentioned, my primary goal right now is to relax and recharge, so the fact that I played Madden for hours and hours isn't a terrible thing. I should have been reading, but oh well, it's not the end of the world.

Outcome: “Win”
Record: 1-0
Streak: Won 1

Summary: It’s been some whirlwind shit lately. I worked, did some preliminary finance management, picked up a few things I forgot at my old apartment, set up more stuff at my friend’s place, went grocery shopping, ate dinner, and now I’m getting ready for bed.
I resisted several food temptations at work today. I’m also doing this thing where I make myself manually input phone numbers when I’m calling people, because the other day I had to call someone from another phone, and I didn’t know anyone’s number, not even good friends. It’ll make me less dependent and have a sharper memory. Oh yeah, pretty big news--I’m at 169.9 lbs. I started at 210. I did three sections of exercises and went over the grammar lesson in my French books.
There was something I started thinking about today, and ethical question. I was reading the Washington Post and there was a discussion about cars, bikes, and pedestrians sharing the road. There were the usual comments, but the ones that caught my attention were the ones saying that bikers were assholes and basically “bullies” because they did whatever they want whenever without warning cars. I don’t consider myself a completely out of control biker, but I will go around people, cross at the pedestrian walk at times, and do other things that are probably technically illegal. Some people were arguing that bikers should be bound to every rule cars are. My first thoughts are several. First, even if I should follow every rule that a car does, I’m not going to, because it defeats one of the primary purposes (for me) of riding, which is that it’s fast (faster than my car). If I waited in line at every traffic light, it would take forever to get to work. Second, cars treat bikers like shit, not that it justifies crazy bike behavior, but if I tried to line up like a car and ride in the middle of the road, like I think you’re technically supposed to do, people would yell, flip me off, and run me off the road. I actually have to cruise the shoulder, otherwise I’d get run over. And since I’m cruising the shoulder, I don’t see why I should stop if the main road is blocked but the shoulder is clear, as it often is. Just preliminary thoughts. I’m tired so I’m going to bed.

I debated about whether to estimate the outcomes of the days up until now (i.e., whether to call them wins or losses) and I decided against it. I'm starting again, once again. Tomorrow will be a new day 1. One thing I'm trying to preserve now is the fact that I'm not behind on anything currently. Everything is either ready to go, not started, or where it needs to be, so I'm good--no more ridiculous workloads hanging over me due to negligence.