I collapsed last night. The people in class started bitching about the project and chatting about non-related crap, and I joined in. It was shameful. I need to be more disciplined.
Notwithstanding, I think there was a strong contributing factor to my collapse which was outside of my control at that point. The night before I had only slept about 3 hours (I had to stay up to do homework), and I ran out of steam once I got to class. I'm going to start generating my schedules with more consideration given to my immediate state. Like, in the abstract, maybe I could expect to do 3 hours of homework tonight, but because I'm sleep deprived and I haven't had a break in a while, I'll lower that to 1 hour, I'll rest for 1 hour, and I'll go to bed an hour earlier. This is all obvious shit, but for some reason it's hard for me to consistently observe it.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Days Since a Collapse: 1
Progress: Weighed in at 176.4 and completed a first read-through of my French lesson. I'm going back through my Living Languages Advanced French program. This time I expect each lesson to take 4 days, which means the program will last 80 working days.
My weight is shameful, but it's not a surprise since my eating and exercising habits have shameful. I intend to correct that starting now, and I hope to break 170 before I leave Maryland.
Tonight in class I will advance at least my first project, if not the one from the other class as well.
Ethics: I did well with social grace today. I was conscious of how I presented myself to others, and I think I did a good job.
I was also disciplined in general, since I had a virtuous day today after several weeks of only semi-virtuous days at best.
I suffered from my usual anxiety, but in a milder-than-normal form.
The main area that I could have done better in was patience. There was a slice of pizza up for grabs, and I was so eager to eat it, that I picked up the nearest plate, which was disposable, and popped it into the microwave. If I had paused for a second, I would have realized that I have a ceramic plate in my work area that I could have used, thus saving a disposable one. I was also impatient to get home to see if I received word from my summer program, which I did not. There's an anecdote from the life of Lycurgus that keeps re-emerging in my memory. It was said that when he received correspondence, even ones of great personal consequence, he would delay receiving it for at least one day in order to cultivate patience. That's real. If I get my response letter from the program, it won't be wrong for me to open it, but it will be awesome if I can put it aside for a day and wait in patience. I'll try to do it when the time comes.
Progress: Weighed in at 176.4 and completed a first read-through of my French lesson. I'm going back through my Living Languages Advanced French program. This time I expect each lesson to take 4 days, which means the program will last 80 working days.
My weight is shameful, but it's not a surprise since my eating and exercising habits have shameful. I intend to correct that starting now, and I hope to break 170 before I leave Maryland.
Tonight in class I will advance at least my first project, if not the one from the other class as well.
Ethics: I did well with social grace today. I was conscious of how I presented myself to others, and I think I did a good job.
I was also disciplined in general, since I had a virtuous day today after several weeks of only semi-virtuous days at best.
I suffered from my usual anxiety, but in a milder-than-normal form.
The main area that I could have done better in was patience. There was a slice of pizza up for grabs, and I was so eager to eat it, that I picked up the nearest plate, which was disposable, and popped it into the microwave. If I had paused for a second, I would have realized that I have a ceramic plate in my work area that I could have used, thus saving a disposable one. I was also impatient to get home to see if I received word from my summer program, which I did not. There's an anecdote from the life of Lycurgus that keeps re-emerging in my memory. It was said that when he received correspondence, even ones of great personal consequence, he would delay receiving it for at least one day in order to cultivate patience. That's real. If I get my response letter from the program, it won't be wrong for me to open it, but it will be awesome if I can put it aside for a day and wait in patience. I'll try to do it when the time comes.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
Posts
