Outcome: "Win"
Record: 65-4
Streak: Won 1

Summary: I got back in it today, after refreshing and tweaking my system. I took care of some admin, did French, made my budget, legislated some policies for myself, wrote down strategies that I've found helpful in conquering my less virtuous aspects, and I cleaned.

Outcome: "Loss"
Record: 64-4
Streak: Lost 2

Summary: I voluntarily took a loss today so that I could rest and review my system. I'm still in the middle of it, but I think this will be beneficial in the long run.

Outcome: "Loss"
Record: 64-3
Streak: Lost 1

Summary: I totally ran out of gas today. I don't think I gave myself enough breaks early in the week. I'm going to sit down and look at some things, to use Andy Reid language. Two things in particular are stressing me out, namely not having a formal set of "laws" and not having my budget set down on paper.

Outcome: "Win"
Record: 64-2
Streak: Won 8

Summary: Oops, I guess I added one to the loss column as well as the win column last night. Today was the normal stuff. I went to yoga again, which is nice, but more of a straight workout than a stretch. One of the tutor's at St. John's asked me some question once when I didn't want to do something. The question went something like, "Is it (your not wanting to do it) because of the task itself, or because of your resistance to it?" It almost seems like a silly thing to say. But in the years since then, I think about it sometimes, and I think the implied idea, which is that your arbitrary resistance to a thing makes it difficult and not the thing itself, is a profound and enabling idea.

Outcome: "Win"
Record: 63-3
Streak: Won 7

Summary: Nice job on the straight 1s Dan. Hell yeah. And hell yeah Eagles. Fuck the Giant Eagles, but the regular Eagles are awesome. I overcame some adversity to do my morning pages, biked and worked with vigor, studied French for 15 minutes, did some AW exercises for 45 minutes, and now I'm off to the Envirocenter meeting.

Outcome: "Win"
Record: 62-2
Streak: Won 6

Summary: I came out strong from the gate today. My morning pages were good, my preparations for work were done efficiently and thoroughly, I worked hard at work, I got a great start on my French, I sent something off for "b", prepared for a big green architecture meeting in Maryland that takes place tomorrow night, and after this I'm going to eat, make my lunch, read the AW book for 45 minutes, and watch the Eagles.

Outcome: "Win"
Record: 61-2
Streak: Won 5

Summary: Got a haircut, did my shopping, made my lunches for next week. Exercised moderation and good ethics in general.

Week in review: This week was tough...too tough. I'm thinking it's because I lost my momentum by going up to Philly. It's hard when you come to accept a less-than-ideal situation, and then suddenly find yourself in paradise only to be yanked back to your former situation days later. Now I'm anxious, and everything seems to be moving too slow. I can overcome it though, and I persevered during some difficult moments. One thing I've noticed is that I have cultivated a pretty strong fall-back energy source, meaning, even after I've hit the point where I'm totally against doing something, I'm antsy, uncomfortable, and being pulled in some other direction by my emotions and impulses, I've been able to turn that off, get serious and hardcore for a second, and sit down and do what I have to do. That's fucking excellent. I would love to keep building that.
Next week I want to be more clear and conscious in my actions. I want things to be crisp. I want to know what my plan is, act in accordance with it, and remember that I acted in accordance with it. I have been doing this to a certain extent, otherwise I wouldn't have given myself the wins, but I need to do it better.
Next week I will do lesson 12 in French, lesson 4 in AW, get a GRE book and start studying for that, go to the envirocenter meeting on Tuesday, do some other stuff for "b", start applying my budget, eat healthfully (hopefully lose a bit more weight), and take care of a host of admin shit.