Transgressions: 11
Effectiveness: Regressing

Based on my ratings it would appear that I did terribly today. The earlier part of the day was quite good--I woke up, wrote a necessary letter, ate lunch with Eva, worked out, ran some errands, set up an account and posted a resume on Monster.com, wrote two more letters, and then finished studying Mozart's Idomeneo. At that point, if I had sat down and wrote until Eva came home, I'd be advancing and with only a handful of penalty points. Instead, Sam made some cookies and put out some candy and turned on a movie. I felt drained, and I also felt especially temped to relax because it's Friday night, although that doesn't mean anything for me lately. I basically folded. I gorged on junk and said fuck it for the night. Shame on me. On the bright side, I think I understand partially why I failed today. I can't just have a list of things of things I want to get done and begin the day with the mentality that I just need to spend as much time and energy on them as possible. That way I feel like I'm fighting something infinite, that my effort will be endless, and that I'll never rest, and if I do rest, I feel like I'm running out of time and I start to panic. I've experimented with this method, and it sucks. A way better method that I want to use is planning out goals over a long period of time, and accomplishing reasonable portions of them daily. I'll schedule work time and break time, and during break time, I'm not going to think about my projects. It's like school. You don't try to do the whole year in one night. You do your work for one class, only worrying about that, or a paper maybe. But by the end of the year you've done a whole year. Maybe that analogy is terrible. If my idea is good, it should get results. We'll see.